Work lunch mid-week, hard core

This is how it should look, so much mayo that its almost like cold cereal (i could so kill a box of captain crunch right now, dammit) in this case because i was extra hungry i added 2 hard boiled eggs to tuna and mayo, tossed on some pepper for color and flava (dont forget that water!)

creepy though this kind of mayo i just got says no need to refrigerate, should i worry about glowing in the dark?

anyway this has like really damn near no carbs, this is your day in day out just do it don't think about it toss it in your bag way to get there that pays for those weekly nudges toward enjoyment, lifestyle.

think about it though, every single day some taco bell blech or can of salty soup or.... its not like you are giving up something amazing on your day to day, you are giving up yetch anyway so why not just fuel up with this so that eventually you get your body back, your energy, your living.

get back down to where you do take that hike on the weekend on the coast and turn in for a really nice dinner and a glass of brilliantly crafted Pinot Noir, mmmm.  even at that once you are well on your way you can do that from time to time, but think like that, steak, veggies and your cheat is that its red instead of white wine and the veggies aren't 100% on plan when you eat like this all week they don't have to be.

this was tasty, i'm very full and honestly after 7.5 months of this, that apple fritter the other day was just gross, it was like a greasy glob of sugar and crisco.  so those really bad binges are getting easier and easier to not miss, sure i'll have the stray thought like the captain crunch above but now that i'm full that totally passed.

when i do get to my goal I will know that i've really done it if there is little to no change to what I eat, it should be a gradual process of guiding my body's fuel to match where i'm at, when i can go mountain biking every weekend or skiing i will need to feed my body healthy carbs for fuel if there's not much fat left to feast on but I should get gradually closer and closer to that as i go.

in theory there is no 'off' the 'diet' I think that is right at the very center of what we've all been doing wrong, we do this in everything we do, vacation, school relationships all 'on' or 'off' when the world we live in is grey, right now i'm no longer a 344lb dude so how i manage my wellness has changed and will keep changing, even at my goal level there will be times where i've strained my knee and wont be going for that ride for a few weeks and i'll need to recognise that and adjust.

what i'm doing right now is practice for that future behavior that habit, the losing of weight is almost ancillary when you realize that that has never been the hardest part.

Happy Living!